the amount of makeup on my face scares me XD

I miss my camera...

Taking "selfies" aren't the same without my hybrid-camera and the camera on my macbook su*** .... It has been a month since i turned  my camera in for some reparations and still they haven't fixed it.. And i have to go all the way to Odense to get it -.-..

- I just wanted to update you that i'm alive, more busy than usual and more sleepless than ever.
Last weekend I came to Odense to celebrate my little sister's 13th birthday and I got her a pair of Sorel winter boots. That little pig wasn't even thankful for the "two-layered-kidney-bean-brownie-strawberry-ice-cream-sandwich" I made for her =__=.

This thursday and saturday i'll go out and celebrate Full Moon/lantern festival and my siblings will come to CPH this friday to spend the entire weekend with me ... And friday i'll babysit my little nephew Michael, so as you can see i have a busy week ahead of me ^^

Bye guys.

What's the best gift someone could give you right now ?

 ~ Their forgiveness .

Right now I feel nothing but hurt. It's like something is stuck in your throat but you can't either swallow or cough it up. Then...  what is there else than to talk about it ? As if talking would  be the only kind of therapy that is more "healthy" than drugs ? and now that we're talking about therapy, I'm the type of person who likes to "sleep" my problems away and yet.... I'm the type of person who easily gets nightmares... So.. I do diaries.. or i used to... (that's why i've been so sleepless at night T-T )

  Usually when i write, i feel that it is easier for me to express my feelings - I used to write all my feelings down with pen and paper instead of telling another person about it because, when talking to another person is like talking to a door, I feel a much greater satisfaction when it's written down and i  know it's stuck on the paper. 

Actually i'm not even sure what i'm talking about right now.. I'm a mess ... a big one.. and this pile of shit is just letting crap out on the blog (terribly sorry for my language :/ ).

 I don't know if i'd hit the winter-depression season already, because if so it happened quite early :O, but i know for sure that i'm one miserable dog right now ... (why?  ~ Well, i am a dog because of my Chinese zodiac and because i'm a coward)

Another strange thing about me you probably don't know is ... i tend to listen to  "overhappy"-music -.- 

It's another therapy thing for brokenhearted...

 It's like a patch on your bruised knee: 

it covers the wound but it still hurts as hell "#%&!?

and today's song is...... (drumroll**)

The Turtles - Happy together ! 

  ♪♪(o*゜∇゜)o～♪♪:  

Imagine me and you, I do 

I think about you day and night, it's only right

To think about the man you love and hold him tight

So happy together

If I should call you up, invest a dime

And you say you belong to me and ease my mind

Imagine how the world could be, so very fine

So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you

For all my life

When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue

For all my life

Me and you and you and me

No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be

The only one for me is you, and you for me

So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you

For all my life

When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue

For all my life...

  ヾ(´□｀* )ノ

Rant on: Asian parties....

Went to my first "Asian-party" and well... Did not stay there for long so..... I really don't know how they usually are ...  But when i... well i came too early so there was only like a few at the party.. And when i was about to leave, an army came.... When i waited for my bus at the bus station,  it just drove by even though i waved.. The next one was late as well and first after 30 min it arrived... and it didn't take me all the way home so i had to change bus but missed the other so i had to wait 30 min more... it took me like 1.5-2 hours to get home .... i actually liked being there and it's fun .... Besides three things: The dress code/theme, the music and the name of the event ... Today's dress-code for the event was to be "colorful"... All i saw was guys in black and girls in black and white.. Today i had difficulties from see the differences between them all because they all ... looked like each other.. but at every party there will always be like 5 that make too much out of it - like dressing in too many colors or overdoing the makeup with blue in the eyebrows and shimmer on the forehead... and they just look like a circus clown or if their faces were colorized with crayons by children.
And here we go with my other problem: The music.. A song is usually 4-5 mins long and here they play like 30 sec. of a song before putting another one on... and here comes my last problem: the name of the event .. My friend told me that tonight's name was "Full Moon Color Party"(correct him if's it's wrong) and to be fully honest ... I think it sounds like a subtitle to a Mario Party game..

 I think i want to go again some other time, and then i have to stay there much longer than today. I actually have a good excuse for leaving early: i'm sick and did not feel well at the moment so i decided to head home for my bed and get some sleep.

The Asian parties in Denmark are either arranged by  the Fried Rice-group or AZNENT/AZNCON and they usually have an event once in a month in the bigger cities in Denmark, like Copenhagen Århus, Odense and sometimes Horsens as well ^^


Damn,... i'm tired ... Goodnight !

Hold me

I have mixed feelings these days ... Not about anything certain but pretty much about anything. I think it is because i'm nervous though. Tomorrow is the first day of school and never in my life i've been so unprepared: I have no books and i forgot my login for the school's site, so i'm not even able to see which lessons i have and where the classes will be at. Luckily my class has a group-page on Facebook and they have told me the most important things so far.
I'm almost finished with unpacking all my stuff and you people probably wonder why it takes me such a long time... and well i do as usual serve the best excuses: first of all i've been gone since i moved over here. I've been on field trip and i've been helping out at my aunt's work, so i haven't even had time to do anything on my laptop. Not even started on watching my  TV series and i already have to go back to school  -.... which means no time for such ... T___T

I haven't handled the transition from my safe small town to the big city too well. I do love Copenhagen, but at times it feels too big, but i thinks i will get used to it after a while. I can't believe i moved out from my little bubble of a home to this... or moreover... moved away from my joyful and carefree teenager years. Though i'm still a teenager, i've never experienced to worry so much about my life and where the road leads me ... At these times, i get scared of what's awaiting me in the future and what is expected from me, because i am the one to control the course of my life but yet i don't feel like handling the task. I need somebody to hold my hand. Not to drag or push me, but somebody i can hold and move along with.


I need a friend.  to hold me .




                                                             ~ and to undress.

    my mind.